The Half of You

I've come to find that having a loved one in your life and having to leave them for periods of time that are undetermined can be very nerve racking. Today Ike got to discover that I am a little crazy when it comes to stress added onto not having him here to hold me. A couple days ago I mentioned to him that when not being around the person you love can create this hole inside you. There becomes a part of you that is missing. I think for me it is my motivation. Ike is my motivation in every aspect of my life, from friends and family to our own relationship. I've comes to realize that I am a weak minded person and that I am going to have to work on that if I am going to last until I see him the next time and the time after that. We've kinda had it easy this semester since I've been home every two weeks or him up here if not even more than that. So next semester will be an adventure. I will definitely try to start looking at things in a positive angle that I will see him again and that I can always call him if I need him. Instead of always looking at it as I don't have him here and I wish I could see him, I'll find something to occupy my mind and know that I will see him as soon as possible. I think anyone who has this same problem can learn something from my crazyness. It also doesn't help that I have finals right now and I am stressed to all hell, but no excuses. I have to learn to live with it at some point, might as well start now. So as far as the half of me that was missing, I've mended that hole as well as possible until the next time I see him which is in another week. I wholey look forward to that. Just so he knows, Ike, you are my other half, my everything.